Any way, when I first started reading these books I was of envious of Mr. Walsh. How awesome would that be?! I thought to myself. To simply write down a question and have “God” answer it. It would certainly save me a lot of time and frustration in doing hours of research in other ways. But I believed that “automatic writing” was a gift only given to certain people and I was just going to have to do it the old fashioned way until I became “enlightened” enough to be able to do it for myself.
The next time I saw something like that done was when I started listening to Abraham-Hicks. Only it was Jerry Hicks asking the questions and Abraham answering them through Esther Hicks. Again, I envied them. Wow! How cool to have that kind of guidance in front of you at all times and not have to wait for a conference to come around or pay a ton of money to have someone else answer my question.
You see, even though I was learning that “we are all God and all one” and that God, our higher selves, or the IAM if you will, are in each of one of us, I thought a person had to be “some kind of special” to have a direct communication with that higher part.
I found out however, quite by accident, that this wasn’t the case at all.
Writing has always been my favorite form of communication and therefore I have kept a personal journal since I was about 11 years old.
When I wrote though it was only using my “own” voice. My own “ego” voice. You know the one -- the one that nags you all the time, the one that complains, insults you, puts you down. Also when I wrote, I would simply state purported facts “You know such and such did this to me and I got so mad. The next time they do that I am going to….whatever torture or belated comeback I could come up with.
What I hadn’t ever thought to do however was to simply “ask” a question and wait for an answer. As far as I was concerned I “had” all the answers about “me” and was just using writing as my way of complaining about it all.
Until one day when I was having a particularly hard time in a personal relationship. I was doing my usual bashing about how this person was selfish and mistreating me and made me so angry! While I don’t remember the exact question I asked, it was something like How am I going to get them to treat me the way I want to be treated? And then I just sat there for a moment and stopped writing because I didn‘t have the answer. I pounded the return key twice on my keyboard (I write everything in a word processor nowadays by the way -it‘s quicker) and just stared at the new blank line when suddenly I felt compelled to put my hands back on the keyboard and typed “What makes you think they are the one who needs to do the changing?”
I sat there confused for a minute because believe me, with as angry as I was, that thought hadn‘t come from my ego. Heck I was the one being wronged here!
So my next typed line to myself was something like “What the hell is that supposed to mean?”
I hit the return twice again and waited.
I suddenly had the urge to type again and it said “What makes you think it is their job to make you happy? Only you can make you happy.”
After that we were off and running! And I’m happy to say I still do it today - everyday!
You see the second “voice“ -- the one that “answered” had a different tone to it. A deeper, lower, slower tone than my normal run-amok ego voice.
This “other” voice had a calming effect - a slow it down and take it easy kind of feel to it. It just simply felt like it was coming from a deeper place.
Now please don’t get me wrong. I am still not at the level that Esther Hicks is. I can’t effortlessly answer any question thrown at me by any person, but I found I can answer my own questions about my life from this deeper place and for now that is more than enough for me.
Maybe someday I will feel the urge to take it a step further. I know that it is possible to do it. I know that we all have access to “all the answers” and that with deeper meditations and practice I can accomplish it, but for now I haven’t felt that urge yet, so I am happy with where I am.
So if you would like to receive some of your personal answers…start asking the questions.
Take a few minutes of silence, grab a piece of paper or open a word document. Type out what your issue is and then directly ask a question and wait for the answer. Give it a few moments. If nothing pops into your head automatically prompt it a little. Like hello!? Have a question here! Where are you? And restate the question.
You might be very surprised at the answer that pops up! Don’t analyze it or second guess it. Just write down or type whatever comes to you.
How will you know the difference between your ego voice and higher self voice? When your higher self voice comes up with an answer your ego wouldn’t in a million years! When the answer feels deeper and somehow right, even though your ego might initially disagree with what the answer is.
Believe it or not I know immediately when my “I AM” voice is coming through because it always leads me back to my coffee. Anytime I sit down and start ranting about something it will stop me in my tracks and ask my how my coffee is or was this morning. I know… I know…sounds crazy.. but then again you don’t know how I feel about my coffee.
I LOVE my coffee in the morning and I appreciate it everyday. The smell, the warmth of the cup and the taste of it. So when I sit down and start typing furiously about some issue I am having and I start getting into an emotional rant, my deeper voice will stop me in my tracks and ask “so how good is that coffee you are drinking?“ Like I said I know it sounds crazy but that always stops my rant immediately and makes me laugh with appreciation for my stupid cup of coffee. Then I calm down and get the answers I am looking for.
So give it a shot. You have nothing to lose. Simply write out your question and wait for your higher self to answer. You will be surprised at some of the awesome things you can learn!